Playlist whilst writing this:
Indigo Eyes Peter Murphy
New Tale to Tell Love & Rockets
Ziggy Stardust (cover) Bauhaus
Fashion David Bowie
Forever Lost The Magic Numbers (thanks Shana!)
The Sky's Gone Out Brian Eno with Bauhaus
Cuts You Up Peter Murphy
Hit Rock Bottom Dandy Warhols
Stix & Stones - Peter Doherty & Carlos Barât
Durch den Monsun Tokio Hotel
I Am Over It Dandy Warhols
Halloween. Never been my favourite. Dunno why. I mean
It's my favourite because my daughter love, love, loves it. This was the first one where she and her little friends went by themselves. Autonomy. I know it feels nice. Armed with empty bags and flashlights. Interestingly, they all came back to the house we all met at
about three times.
To check in on us.
They were fifties girls replete with poodle dresses.
I sat with two mothers and we talked about how fortunate we were that they were all friends. Tight friends. Hopefully, friends that stick together for a very long time.
My hair guy on my team
I've known him since I was 11.
I hope for them.
I don't hope for the Bush administration. The first link in the chain. Indicted. I think many more will come down the pipeline. Sad thing for our country. This country feels different. Apathetic. Looking the other way. Looks like "cheap gas" has come back.
I hear that a certain blonde actress pixie-cute and prim and proper wasn't into the Halloween party she attended without her husband, I may add when the naked dancer chicks started writhing around. She put on an eye mask when someone noticed her. The host of the party formerly in a band but now doing music for "the industry" well, his wife, she dressed up as Jesus. I think that's in horrible taste.
Yeah, I'm a religious fundamentalist.
You didn't fucking know?
Whilst all of the Halloween parties were going on
I was shooting the MySpace.com 2nd Anniversary Concert. Tom is a very nice guy just so you all know. Dashboard Confessional. Why are they popular? Dunno. There were friggin' people crying and singing. I don't get it. All American Rejects. Why are they popular? I don't get that one either.
Don't people understand that these kinds of groups are created just like Nabisco creates a new snack cake? Focus groups. Taste tests. Insipidness. Is that a word?
What's the fuck count?
When I'm around my baby's suburban friend's mothers
the fucks don't come out like a tempestuous stream.
Shit does, though.
Apple really really really hit it out of the park with the Ipod with video. I'm amazed. Jobs for president.
I know he could do a better job than that monkey-eared moron that's got his ass planted in the office right now.
Anyone could do a better job.
I'm still besides the indictment information on a news moratorium. Enough fucking hurricanes. Enough. Play-by-play of a fucking hurricane? Assholes from the Nabisco-like news networks standing in wind and rain? Who the fuck watches that?
I don't get it.
There's a lot I don't get.
I just make photos.
And raise a well-adjusted little girl.
Who's doing much better in math.
I talked to her math teacher. Her son is an underwater camera operator! I don't know that kind of work but appreciate how hard it must be to "make it," as it were. Parents that coddle any dream of their respective kids have all of my respect.
Only school was pushed down my throat but they mine supported anything I wanted to do.
Honestly, I think the most amount of notes I get and am usually loathe to respond to because of time are those saying, "How'd you get into it?" or "How do you make it as a photographer?"
Just so you guys know
most of the people that I know who've made it in the commercial sense are self-taught or came up thru the ranks as assistants. I think school tends to push out cookie cutter photographers with a style that's not their own. I know that there are diamonds in the rough.
Isn't it true that most people go through a "photography phase" not unlike a girl's "horse phase"?
I know many talented photographers. The kind that get an assignment here and there and will never "make it." Why? Making the photo is only a part of the equation.
If you're shy, you ain't gettin' in the door. You gotta have balls.
You have to sell-out a bit.
I think that most people have no idea what the competition is like. Most of these types are the ones that think they're going to do "high concept." How many David La Chapelle's are there really?
Sure, you can be a professional but that includes school portraits, industrial, that kinda shit. Like they say in used car sales, "There's an ass for every seat."
It's about relationships. More than anything else. It's about being easy to work with. It's about being put in any situation and "making the fucking photo."
A gazillion pageviews doesn't mean shit. Just so you know.
I strongly suggest to anyone that wants to have a chance to make it, to assist. Not for me, mind you, my team is full. I get a lot of questions about that as well.
I also get a lot of requests for portfolio reviews. I've done a few but most people can't take criticism so I stopped.
Going to wars was never really something I wanted to do. There are the Morris'
you don't get rich doing this
just so you know. I'm glad Christopher and James do what they do. Knowing full-well they'd never be driving a hummer and married to a fake-breasted blonde addicted to happy-pills.
They allow me to see a world I wouldn't normally get to see.
I prefer the more shallow worlds to
lend my eyes as it were
a world that is almost as foreign as a foreign war or conflict or whatever.
Knowing I'm "comin' home" is much more important to me. Raising a daughter is much more important.
lend my eyes to the world that prefers photos of Mischa and Lindsay and fashion and Nicole over what's really going on. Notice I forgot Paris? I asked an editor at a weekly, "When are we done with her?"
"Not too soon. The focus groups want even more."
put out a sex tape and anyone can make it in anything..
Almost true here as well
show some skin
get some pageviews. No?
Switching to Tiger tomorrow.
says it's cool so it must be.
Can I just tell you how much I love jockeying my hard drive archive? Which, of course, is not on just one drive. It's on 8. I'm paranoid. Not to mention the other two copies residing in both a remote location in a fireproof safe in addition to the other copy that just resides.
Tomorrow I'm also getting a new 7200 rpm internal hard drive. 120gb. I live on a Powerbook.
No matter what the Mac-haters say
Macs are still cooler.
My one external hard drive (250gb) is for dumping the "just shot" RAW's. Suffice it to say that I haven't been into burning DVD's lately. Nor burning the "putting-off-to-purchase-DVD's"
when I saw 30gb remaining.
Another task for tomorrow.
Just for this past fashion week alone I shot 40gb of images.
That's 10 dvd's to burn.
it's really not the talent. It's really not the networking and making and maintaining the ever-important relationships. It is
but it isn't. It's the work-flow issues. Pre-shoot. Whilst shooting. Post-shoot. And then archiving.
I feel like an eye-tee person sometimes. I dunno if that's what I want to feel like.
No pocket protector.
No endless subscriptions to teen porn.
lots of data to move around.
This made me laugh: [link]
This is a guy that definitely needs to subscribe to some porn!
But he probably already does.
NEXT DAY PLAYLIST ALL MAZZY STAR
I slept until 13.00
no computer upgrades today.
Thanks to ~griff-flyer
I was introduced to the work of ~lloydhughes
very nice stuff. Love the style.
I found ~agatha-katzensprung
all from one click
initiated by the suggestion of ~griff-flyer
That's why I love this place. One of the reasons. I mean
one click and I have no idea what I'm going to find.
beyond some hater spewing bullshit
it's the gift
For us all
to brighten our days
and makes us see something through the eyes of someone we didn't know before.
Seeing both of these styles
and listening to Mazzy
it's the small things.
Like my daughter's erudition
Or the smile on my dog's face.
Like getting the random IM from `northengirl
about this: [link]
Congrats love! I always knew you knew what the hell you were doing. You do. Better than people that probably tell you how to make photos.
I wish I could respond to every note, comment, comment on my page
all that. Just so you know I read everything. I cannot respond to everything. 'twould be impossible to say the very least. I am appreciative
most of you put a smile on my face. The others
they get deleted or ignored.
Having had a couple days to chill
I've been around here more often. DD'in' like a mofo. I'm up to 15 November.
Sometimes this place almost seems like a vacation from the craziness.
In fact! Having just a couple days to have nothing expected from me beyond the emails and voicemails and calls I actually take feels like a vacation. I just didn't have to sit on plane for 10 hours.
thank you so much for devwatches, the faves, the comments (replied or not, but ALWAYS red)
for the experience. All-in-all it's all good.
Hope this finds all of you very very well.
Cheers from Los Angeles,
JUST AS I WAS DOING AN APPLE-A
I get this in the form of a note:
MY DD COMMENT: Wargames by *Corvi I like how this deviant focused on the gun and not the boy. I think it says much more that way. It seems as though the boy is more of an adjunct to the photo. At that age I only got a bb gun what I would have given for one of those.
NOTE TO ME: I think your comment "At that age I only got a bb gun what I would have given for one of those. " Is a bit insensative to the strong emotion in the image. It's poking fun about kids with guns. I don't think poking fun at a kid with a real gun is wise, it's a serious issue rather than fun. With all the violence, and young kids shooting other young kids. I think your comment is rude. That's just me.
NOTE BACK: please.
i was taught by a grandfather who was an experienced hunter. i deserved more than a plinking bb gun when i was 8. i know more about firearms safety than ANYONE you know ... and .. i have from a very very young age.
i can also flyfish.
and tie knots on a boat.
thanks for the concern, though,
cheers from the gun-loving blue state that is california,
Try under-active parents, violent video games, televised professional (term used loosely) wrestling, the Bush admin's love affair with fear
that's what's wrong. Guns aren't wrong. People are wrong. Yes, I'm a liberal. Just so you know.
Off to the shower and then the city.